Why are you depressed?
You've told me many times in the past you don't know why, but there will be a reason, there always is, I know this better than most; more than likely there are multiple reasons, but they will be there, definite and very concrete reasons, which with effort can be changed or destroyed.
Think about it.
Why are you depressed?
Tell us this, and we will help you, but you have to make that step first.
You sat here last night, where I am sitting right now, and typed your post into a computer to reach out to the world rather than cock your head to the side and speak to a friend, but that was expected as I know what you're like, well, I've answered your question before, here is my question, please answer it, because I want to help you.
If needed, we'll even help you here, in this imaginary cyberspace, but we need to do something.
A few days ago I found an open letter I wrote to you, just after Christmas, it said many things about who you are and what you mean to those around you, they still hold true, but to mean those things you need to respect yourself and move yourself to do those things necessary in your life; remember what you mean to us, remember that you are needed, of your worth, you make an impact on those around, and that impact is your purpose, it makes you what you are and why you need to continue, it may seem incredibly small sometimes, but believe me when I say its expanse is larger than you can imagine.
Also, I am sorry for lending to the signs that have plagued you recently, it was never my intent.
Wes